Fear & Family
One of my favorite quotes from Life is Strange is a piece of graffiti.
“I’d rather have a life of ‘oh wells” than a life of “what ifs.”
You may not know this about me, but I am scared of a lot of things. Heights, snakes & guns being among them. Living in the UK, I don’t see many of these in my daily life. One thing I am scared of though, is social interactions. It’s not that I am super awkward or anything (though I can be), but I am afraid of looking like an idiot, of being judged by people and found wanting. Of being rejected. I’ve messed up a lot of things from this fear, and this site was nearly one of them.
I joined Life is Strange Fans a few months ago, but I’ve known about it for a long time now, almost since it was created. I don’t remember how I first found out about the site, but I do remember my first impressions of it. I remember being really happy to see a place that could bring people together, and seeing all the cool art, writings and photos that people were creating and sharing with their community. Even then I knew I was a great place, but I didn’t join them. I was too scared to act. What if none of them liked me? Or I said something stupid and offended someone? Even worse, what if I made really close friends, then lost them all?
In the end, I chose the ‘what ifs’ over the ‘oh wells’. At least for a very long time. Lucky for me, I eventually changed my mind.
Skipping forwards in time, and I heard about Life is Strange Fans again. This time, I pushed past my fears and finally joined. As many scary ‘what ifs’ there were, I knew I would regret not joining even more.
Looking back on it, I am so glad that I did so. Since I joined, I have met so many interesting and kind-hearted people from all over the world, people I am glad to call friend and had the chance to get to know. I’ve been jealous of people’s amazing art skills, I’ve cried (multiple times) at reading peoples writing. I’ve learned so much about other cultures and perspectives and I’ve laughed at all the silly games and comments people make. Because of all the amazing people here, it’s become like a second home to me. A second home with a really weird family, but one I will always be glad to call myself a part of.
So thanks for that. To the people who created this place that feels like home, to the people that help run it. To the Councillors that put so much time and effort helping people, to the members who always manage to cheer me up and make me smile. Happy first anniversary LiSF, I hope it’s the first of many more years to come.